The mixed bag day

You know what I am referring to, don’t you? The day that has some really great moments and some crapulous ones. The day that makes you feel like life is sometimes just a roller coaster and now that you are on it, you just have to hold on and if necessary, close your eyes (or ignore what you are seeing)…

So what was good? Lovely sunshine. Time on the deck with a glass of wine while I water the lawn and my now lovely garden. Getting some errands done, including freeing up credit on our Home Depot card in preparation for our very exciting kitchen reno. Getting an invitation out to good friends for a full-day social and sport day we have planned on Saturday that starts out on the beach volleyball courts and ends with drinks and food at a friend’s home – very much looking forward to it. Great stuff, right?

Then there’s the tough moments. Unhappy coworkers and a tough work environment. Taking a multitude of busses to get around town because I didn’t have a car today, but I DID have an appointment. Which brings me to the really tough moments. Any time I now go to my doctor’s, I face kids. Babies. Pregnant ladies. Lots of them. It’s not a fun environment for a woman who has had two back-to-back failed pregnancies. And then the big moment, when my doctor calls my name out, and I look up, and SHE is pregnant. So pregnant that while I was suffering miscarriage, she was happily pregnant. Jeeeeeez. C’mon people! Ya gotta stop! Every day on Facebook – pictures of babies, pictures of growing bellies, status updates about baby heartbeats…and then….visiting babies at work in the hallways…it’s a steady stream of reminders. All. The. Time. Over. And. Over.

Okay. I’m done. I am fine. I am sure that we will eventually have a family. I have lots of hope.

And sunshine, a garden and a new kitchen to enjoy and/or look forward to.

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