Yesterday morning wasn’t my best morning ever. I have really been struggling to improve my attitude, my happiness levels, and my health in particular. It has been a very tough winter, and emotional eating and excuses have been my MO lo’ these past few months, to the point where I am seeing rolls where there were previously nice curves and some somewhat defined muscles. The thing is, I don’t know how the downward spiral began, and I can’t pinpoint why it began, but I sure can look back at why it got worse! Life events played a big factor, but more than that, I got tired. Tired of being so busy my life felt like one big schedule. Tired of forcing myself to sleep less, work out at specific times, and struggle with myself to eat foods that weren’t appealing to me.
Winter doesn’t help. It is a proven fact that each winter, Canadians on average gain weight because it is a natural tendancy to eat heartier, heavier food when temperatures go down in order to have more insulation against the elements. So to try to eat light and healthy is a real struggle sometimes.
And finally, I think I have a hard time accepting that it is impossible for me to eat what I want, when I want and simply live and active life and look the way I want to look. It is a harsh reality to realize that if I have expectations of maintaining a certain body, that it will take continuous and constant sacrifice. It kinda feels like a jail sentence, and let me tell you, for someone who loves food, it takes a lot of ongoing creativity to figure out how to cook food that will satisfy the health quotient AND be tasty too. For three years I did well, but then again, I had a few favourite items that I ate a lot of, and now I am sick of them, so what now?
Does anyone have any ideas? Any good recipes that have good protein, low saturated fat, some good Omega fats, low sugar and sodium (although sodium is not as big a deal) but still taste delicious? Send me ideas!!!
But back to my day yesterday. As bad as it was, there was one very lovely highlight, and that was the fact that as I pulled up to the window in my car in line at the drivethru at Tim Horton’s, I was told that my coffee had been bought for me by the woman in the SUV in front of me in line.
I didn’t know her, I had never seen her in my life. And I guess, she simply wanted to do something nice for someone, and I happened to be that person…???
Random acts of kindness don’t happen often and when they do, boy, do they ever make an impact.
I should try it sometime. It might go a long way to make me feel better about myself.